my mommie is awesome.
i never ever ever ever want to be without her.
mommie i miss u.
i never wanna grow up.
u have to be with me for ever and ever and ever.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
the life of an art history major.
there are times when i wonder how my life would be different if i were actually an Art History major.
Like, not a BComm and BA Art History. but JUST BA Art History.
....
what would i do with my life? o.O.
Just back from the bookstore. finally decided to stop fighting with the Dual Degree office, the Art History Chair and the Dean of Academics and just take all the courses I suddenly now have to take.
dropped well over $400 for the required readings of two courses, and half died carrying the books home. and they weren't even hardcover. -_-".
Seriously. how do real art history majors even afford textbooks? ???
I guess there are some perks to being a Commie afterall o.O.
P.S. for the guys :: for the best ratios on campus. take any 2nd year and/or above Art History courses. I swear I have never seen so many Caucasian females gathered in the same room. seriously. -_-".
Like, not a BComm and BA Art History. but JUST BA Art History.
....
what would i do with my life? o.O.
Just back from the bookstore. finally decided to stop fighting with the Dual Degree office, the Art History Chair and the Dean of Academics and just take all the courses I suddenly now have to take.
dropped well over $400 for the required readings of two courses, and half died carrying the books home. and they weren't even hardcover. -_-".
Seriously. how do real art history majors even afford textbooks? ???
I guess there are some perks to being a Commie afterall o.O.
P.S. for the guys :: for the best ratios on campus. take any 2nd year and/or above Art History courses. I swear I have never seen so many Caucasian females gathered in the same room. seriously. -_-".
Sunday, September 20, 2009
laugh w/ me.
LMAO. i'm going through all the pictures from exchange because i want to print pictures. some of the FUNNIEST things ever. though bad at the same time because it makes me miss so much random stuff and gahhhh!. LOL.
in chronological order ::
1. Pre-school beijing - moon cake at zhu's. zhu stuck on ceiling. LOL.
2. Olympics - beach vball - pure amazingness. china pride.
3. Olympics closing - getting everyone in - awesome night.
4. Elementary Reunion - drunk at 3pm craziness. mad love.
5. 798 - room of mirrors.
6. Cari SingCon - stalker attempt fail - "I saw ur green light"
7. GuiLin - too much - bamboo float incident - Cari's revenge on Peng
8. GuiLin - YMX's uh... special condition
9. GuiLin - Cari's flip flop incident - Peng's awesomness.
10. GuiLin - hotel room camwhore sessions. LOL.
11. GuiLin - Farmer Peng in GENERAL. LMAO. & Train jokes.
12. XiangShan - dates! lol. =P.
13. SiMaTai - everything. sketchy lunch to sketchy cab drivers to amazingness of the wall to andy's affair with the sketchy ladies to crazy jumping pics. all of it =).
14. DaTong - 6 top bunks. randoms.
15. ZJJ - Andy bumping into the cave wall (lmao totally forgot about that. but man so jokes)
16. ZJJ - Roy's leg problems - Andrius + Andy teamwork
17. ZJJ - Andy joining morning exercise routine of workers
18. ZJJ - monkeys! // andy's family members
19. Pheonix - Spirited away. lol
20. Whale Week - 3 hr cooking dinner process. Chef flipping skills & fail. 偷吃. LOL. Cari's tumour. Death of Skippy.
21. WW - Olympic Park - elbow head. ignored too many times. LOL.
22. WW - skating "oh shiet". super saiyan
23. Bailey Bday - Tina mad fail. LOL.
24. Xmas Eve Dinner - Chef Peng craziness. Gah - i know there was more... can't rmb =(
25. NPAC w/ Cari - "omg CAR. omg MALL. omg CIVILIZATION!". overy helpful security guard. LOL.
26. Skating x2 - TAG. Muneeb's helpers. fun times =).
27. @ Helen's - general randomness of it all. can't rmb specifics. =P.
ahhh. there must be so much more... but this is just from looking thru pictures. good times. =).
thank u for the memories. =).
in chronological order ::
1. Pre-school beijing - moon cake at zhu's. zhu stuck on ceiling. LOL.
2. Olympics - beach vball - pure amazingness. china pride.
3. Olympics closing - getting everyone in - awesome night.
4. Elementary Reunion - drunk at 3pm craziness. mad love.
5. 798 - room of mirrors.
6. Cari SingCon - stalker attempt fail - "I saw ur green light"
7. GuiLin - too much - bamboo float incident - Cari's revenge on Peng
8. GuiLin - YMX's uh... special condition
9. GuiLin - Cari's flip flop incident - Peng's awesomness.
10. GuiLin - hotel room camwhore sessions. LOL.
11. GuiLin - Farmer Peng in GENERAL. LMAO. & Train jokes.
12. XiangShan - dates! lol. =P.
13. SiMaTai - everything. sketchy lunch to sketchy cab drivers to amazingness of the wall to andy's affair with the sketchy ladies to crazy jumping pics. all of it =).
14. DaTong - 6 top bunks. randoms.
15. ZJJ - Andy bumping into the cave wall (lmao totally forgot about that. but man so jokes)
16. ZJJ - Roy's leg problems - Andrius + Andy teamwork
17. ZJJ - Andy joining morning exercise routine of workers
18. ZJJ - monkeys! // andy's family members
19. Pheonix - Spirited away. lol
20. Whale Week - 3 hr cooking dinner process. Chef flipping skills & fail. 偷吃. LOL. Cari's tumour. Death of Skippy.
21. WW - Olympic Park - elbow head. ignored too many times. LOL.
22. WW - skating "oh shiet". super saiyan
23. Bailey Bday - Tina mad fail. LOL.
24. Xmas Eve Dinner - Chef Peng craziness. Gah - i know there was more... can't rmb =(
25. NPAC w/ Cari - "omg CAR. omg MALL. omg CIVILIZATION!". overy helpful security guard. LOL.
26. Skating x2 - TAG. Muneeb's helpers. fun times =).
27. @ Helen's - general randomness of it all. can't rmb specifics. =P.
ahhh. there must be so much more... but this is just from looking thru pictures. good times. =).
thank u for the memories. =).
Saturday, September 19, 2009
fall in love.
today is one of those rare, but oh-so-perfect days in kingston.
sky is a beautifully clear shade of blue, and not a single cloud in the sky.
autumn has descended upon this beautiful small town and the trees are quietly changing costumes into a multitude of shades and brilliant colours.
the air is cool and fresh without the slightest hint of impurity.
and a cute video to go with a gorgeous day =)
one of those days. where anything could be possible. =]
sky is a beautifully clear shade of blue, and not a single cloud in the sky.
autumn has descended upon this beautiful small town and the trees are quietly changing costumes into a multitude of shades and brilliant colours.
the air is cool and fresh without the slightest hint of impurity.
and a cute video to go with a gorgeous day =)
one of those days. where anything could be possible. =]
Friday, September 18, 2009
一个人的日子。
有的时候，我发现或许我真的是一个很孤僻的人。
我喜欢自己一个人，不被任何其他的东西打扰。
或许我们都有点OCD吧。我不喜欢被别人打扰，不喜欢东西被别人动，多有些东西会很执著，非要摆成一个样子，不喜欢被别人改变。
其实我真得很喜欢我现在的小屋子。虽然真得跟我家里的衣柜差不多大，但觉得很温馨，很简单。
回到kingston, 好想好想静下来。好想好想一个人。好想好想休息一下。
从新习惯和他住在一起，从新习惯学校里的压力，大家的排比，无聊。
今天去系里上课，出来以后发现楼里没有一个认识的人。
有点失落，有点孤单。因为真得已经不再熟悉。
或许是走得太久了吧，太多人我都不认识了，找不到从前的感觉了。找不到自己在这所大学里的位置了。但同时又还是有那么多人... 走在校园里常常有人打招呼，但是我记性真得很差，所以都不太记得了，很尴尬的对话，尽量避开名字。
但同时，我好像最近真得很安静。不想被人打扰。话说时开始喜欢30多岁的成熟男人，其实是什么都不想要了。玩儿累了。
想想，发现我在北京的快乐有很多是因为我可是随便是谁。我可以疯我可以乱我可以乖我可以读书我也可以疯玩儿。没有人认识我，没有人的看法对我有任何影响。他们爱怎么看我怎么看我。我懒得管。那其实也是一种自由。可以把自己一个人在人群里弄丢的自由。
怀念在北京的晚上，晕晕的去跳舞，只是跳舞而已。不在乎别人想什么，不在乎和谁在一起，反正知道第二天大家都还是会回到陌生人的位置而已。
怀念在北京上班，和同事们乱聊，让他们都以为我真的就是一个北京长大的学生，很天真，很爱玩而已。没有人会想到我的真正背景。
kingston 很好啊。。。 标准的大学城。从星期二晚上开始 party, 周三晚上十点club就已经排队排得进不了人了。earl street 原来挺忙的。 几乎每晚都有很大声的音乐开到很晚。安大略湖也很漂亮，星星也很亮。都挺好的。真得挺好的。
我喜欢自己一个人，不被任何其他的东西打扰。
或许我们都有点OCD吧。我不喜欢被别人打扰，不喜欢东西被别人动，多有些东西会很执著，非要摆成一个样子，不喜欢被别人改变。
其实我真得很喜欢我现在的小屋子。虽然真得跟我家里的衣柜差不多大，但觉得很温馨，很简单。
回到kingston, 好想好想静下来。好想好想一个人。好想好想休息一下。
从新习惯和他住在一起，从新习惯学校里的压力，大家的排比，无聊。
今天去系里上课，出来以后发现楼里没有一个认识的人。
有点失落，有点孤单。因为真得已经不再熟悉。
或许是走得太久了吧，太多人我都不认识了，找不到从前的感觉了。找不到自己在这所大学里的位置了。但同时又还是有那么多人... 走在校园里常常有人打招呼，但是我记性真得很差，所以都不太记得了，很尴尬的对话，尽量避开名字。
但同时，我好像最近真得很安静。不想被人打扰。话说时开始喜欢30多岁的成熟男人，其实是什么都不想要了。玩儿累了。
想想，发现我在北京的快乐有很多是因为我可是随便是谁。我可以疯我可以乱我可以乖我可以读书我也可以疯玩儿。没有人认识我，没有人的看法对我有任何影响。他们爱怎么看我怎么看我。我懒得管。那其实也是一种自由。可以把自己一个人在人群里弄丢的自由。
怀念在北京的晚上，晕晕的去跳舞，只是跳舞而已。不在乎别人想什么，不在乎和谁在一起，反正知道第二天大家都还是会回到陌生人的位置而已。
怀念在北京上班，和同事们乱聊，让他们都以为我真的就是一个北京长大的学生，很天真，很爱玩而已。没有人会想到我的真正背景。
kingston 很好啊。。。 标准的大学城。从星期二晚上开始 party, 周三晚上十点club就已经排队排得进不了人了。earl street 原来挺忙的。 几乎每晚都有很大声的音乐开到很晚。安大略湖也很漂亮，星星也很亮。都挺好的。真得挺好的。
Sunday, September 13, 2009
ended. summer.
so summer officially ends as final year of university begins tomorrow.
housemate pulled together a mini-bbq at our house. super ghetto but super amazing.
grateful for friends.
this was actually a lot of fun. 5 hour dinner, but seriously. did not know meat could taste this good outside of china. lol.
suddenly so old. can't believe we're 4th yr already.
i have awesome friends. they make everything worthwhile =).
it's going to be an amazing year.
it's gotta be =).
我以为我已经修炼到可以刀枪不入。
结果原来还是一句话就可以把我打垮。
housemate pulled together a mini-bbq at our house. super ghetto but super amazing.
grateful for friends.
this was actually a lot of fun. 5 hour dinner, but seriously. did not know meat could taste this good outside of china. lol.
suddenly so old. can't believe we're 4th yr already.
i have awesome friends. they make everything worthwhile =).
it's going to be an amazing year.
it's gotta be =).
我以为我已经修炼到可以刀枪不入。
结果原来还是一句话就可以把我打垮。
Friday, September 11, 2009
new beginings?
It seems as though everyone who used to blog no longer blog.
not on blogspot at least. *shrugs.
would like to start blogging publicly again with the start of the new school term.
feels like there is much to catch up on and much that i had wanted to hold on to but had forgotten because i no longer blog regularly. lol. getting old. no memory of anything these days.
want to catch up on a few events that have happened in my 6 days of summer vacation. lol. sad i know. but it felt longer than 6 so it's all good =).
1. bluffs.
another sunrise, another year, another new beginning.
grateful for all who came out to uphold the tradition that is so dear to me.
however. this yr felt different somehow.
funny how it's the first time i was "legally" allowed to go (no need to sneak out and sneak back into the house anymore.. lol at the joys of growing up.)
was something missing? ... perhaps.
afterall. the "complete" aspect of bluffs isn't so complete w/o u.
but again. it is another yr. yet another. things r different. ppl grow up.
last bluffs? ... possibly. but will be forever grateful for all that it has stood for over the yrs.
bests. mw. vc. gs. jl. ks. ♥
2. 2+1 begins.
2 boys + 1 girl.
2 commies + 1 lifesci.
*fingers crossed for an a w e s o m e year. =)
it's wonderful to be back with the best friend. think my mind had been rotting away w/o him =P.
mike has also been absolutely wonderful. love how someone else gets to be sooo responsible while i just chill hard =D.
finally settled in and my room is on its way to become my cozy sanctuary. it's going to be awesome.
3. kingston.
it's been 16 months away from this place.
i've been going to random things just to see people.
woke up to "how do u feel frosh???" and choruses of "oh i feel SO good OH i feel so good, OH!"....
mannnnn our street was dominated by purple eng frosh this morning. oh the joys of being so close to campus. lol.
went to the lake today. just chilled and watched the waters. so sunny today. heart this place so much when it's not gray and gloomy and buried under slush.
i like it here. after 16 months, there's actually less strings here than anywhere else. there r so many things that i hadn't even realized that i had missed. so many ppl to see and catch up w/ =).
maybe it'll be a new begining afterall.
let bygones be bygones. holding on only to the good and the highlights worth rmbing, and forgetting the rest. (lol. lacking brain capacity these days) don't want reminders.
**!!! oh! secret to share =P. i got STAR back =D. hehehehehe. 613.583.STAR =P.
technically i could do LUF STAR. but mannnn i think even i'm getting too old for that -__-". lol.
it's going to be an awesome year.
if i say it often enough it will become true =D.
faith!
not on blogspot at least. *shrugs.
would like to start blogging publicly again with the start of the new school term.
feels like there is much to catch up on and much that i had wanted to hold on to but had forgotten because i no longer blog regularly. lol. getting old. no memory of anything these days.
want to catch up on a few events that have happened in my 6 days of summer vacation. lol. sad i know. but it felt longer than 6 so it's all good =).
1. bluffs.
another sunrise, another year, another new beginning.
grateful for all who came out to uphold the tradition that is so dear to me.
however. this yr felt different somehow.
funny how it's the first time i was "legally" allowed to go (no need to sneak out and sneak back into the house anymore.. lol at the joys of growing up.)
was something missing? ... perhaps.
afterall. the "complete" aspect of bluffs isn't so complete w/o u.
but again. it is another yr. yet another. things r different. ppl grow up.
last bluffs? ... possibly. but will be forever grateful for all that it has stood for over the yrs.
bests. mw. vc. gs. jl. ks. ♥
2. 2+1 begins.
2 boys + 1 girl.
2 commies + 1 lifesci.
*fingers crossed for an a w e s o m e year. =)
it's wonderful to be back with the best friend. think my mind had been rotting away w/o him =P.
mike has also been absolutely wonderful. love how someone else gets to be sooo responsible while i just chill hard =D.
finally settled in and my room is on its way to become my cozy sanctuary. it's going to be awesome.
3. kingston.
it's been 16 months away from this place.
i've been going to random things just to see people.
woke up to "how do u feel frosh???" and choruses of "oh i feel SO good OH i feel so good, OH!"....
mannnnn our street was dominated by purple eng frosh this morning. oh the joys of being so close to campus. lol.
went to the lake today. just chilled and watched the waters. so sunny today. heart this place so much when it's not gray and gloomy and buried under slush.
i like it here. after 16 months, there's actually less strings here than anywhere else. there r so many things that i hadn't even realized that i had missed. so many ppl to see and catch up w/ =).
maybe it'll be a new begining afterall.
let bygones be bygones. holding on only to the good and the highlights worth rmbing, and forgetting the rest. (lol. lacking brain capacity these days) don't want reminders.
**!!! oh! secret to share =P. i got STAR back =D. hehehehehe. 613.583.STAR =P.
technically i could do LUF STAR. but mannnn i think even i'm getting too old for that -__-". lol.
it's going to be an awesome year.
if i say it often enough it will become true =D.
faith!
Saturday, September 5, 2009
substance.
about 2 months ago.
i had an insane amount of clarity in my life.
i knew exactly what i wanted, where i wanted to be, and how i was going to get there.
i was so sure. i looked at my peers, some desperately grasping at fantastical nothings, some motivated by all the wrong things and pushed along by the waves of the Commerce mentality, others still so naive and unprepared for the real world.
in comparison, i was sure. i had a plan. i wasn't going to be swayed by the Commerce wave, I wasn't going to keep dreaming of the impossible, what i wanted was easily achievable, and I could have it all.
... some how. that seems so far away now.
one surprise email. one interview. one visit back to Kingston. one conversation with Commies.
suddenly the ground was pulled out right beneath my feet. and right away. i am caught back up in that tidal wave. suddenly following a different dream. suddenly my plan was gone.
left with me are the feelings of ... lack of substance. lack of ambition. inadequacy.
i can't remember that clarify anymore.
instead. empty w/o substance.
i still have my options. i still have "plans"...
except they now seem dull and lackluster.
4th year was going to be soooooo chill & sooooooo much fun.
all i wanted was endless partying and chilling & happiness =D.
somehow. that seems so far away now.
lol.
i had an insane amount of clarity in my life.
i knew exactly what i wanted, where i wanted to be, and how i was going to get there.
i was so sure. i looked at my peers, some desperately grasping at fantastical nothings, some motivated by all the wrong things and pushed along by the waves of the Commerce mentality, others still so naive and unprepared for the real world.
in comparison, i was sure. i had a plan. i wasn't going to be swayed by the Commerce wave, I wasn't going to keep dreaming of the impossible, what i wanted was easily achievable, and I could have it all.
... some how. that seems so far away now.
one surprise email. one interview. one visit back to Kingston. one conversation with Commies.
suddenly the ground was pulled out right beneath my feet. and right away. i am caught back up in that tidal wave. suddenly following a different dream. suddenly my plan was gone.
left with me are the feelings of ... lack of substance. lack of ambition. inadequacy.
i can't remember that clarify anymore.
instead. empty w/o substance.
i still have my options. i still have "plans"...
except they now seem dull and lackluster.
4th year was going to be soooooo chill & sooooooo much fun.
all i wanted was endless partying and chilling & happiness =D.
somehow. that seems so far away now.
lol.
Friday, September 4, 2009
Proof.
Been watching a lot of TV these past couple of "free" days.
Something funny came up. The key conflict in the plot came as a result of the girl asking for the guy for a present as "proof" that he once loved her that much, because she knew that they would not be "forever", but just wanted something to "prove" that they once were.
I just thought it was funny how people hold on to these things.
"Proof" is only needed if there is no trust. if the original thing it was "proving" were subject to be reviewed and judged.
Funny how it's usually women that need the proof.
Are we so insecure that we always need something more tangible to hold on to?
Are we so forgetful that we need something more than love itself to remind us?
Are we so desperate that we need to go thru the rest of our mundane lives grasping onto something that "proves" that once upon a time, we too, were desirable, and worthy of such an "earth-shattering" kind of love?
Funny how easily people forget.
Funny how fast things change.
I think that's why people actually need proof.
because too often, it is gone before we even realize what we had had in the first place.
we are left wondering, whether something so amazing was just a fragment of our imaginations, or did our dreams actually come true? ... but if so... how were we so stupid to let it slip between our fingers and disappear into nothingness?
... and that's why we search for "proof". to prove that we are sane, to prove that yes, once upon a time, it did happen.
... i don't anymore. LOL. i think my memory has deteriorated past the point of no return. even if i had had proof, i would've forgotten it already. lol. and actually. if i needed proof, then that means u're no longer here. why would i need proof of something that no longer is? and if u were here, and will be here to stay... then ... proof is redundant. no?
让过去的都过去吧。
每天都是新的一天。
我们从新开始，好么？
。
Something funny came up. The key conflict in the plot came as a result of the girl asking for the guy for a present as "proof" that he once loved her that much, because she knew that they would not be "forever", but just wanted something to "prove" that they once were.
I just thought it was funny how people hold on to these things.
"Proof" is only needed if there is no trust. if the original thing it was "proving" were subject to be reviewed and judged.
Funny how it's usually women that need the proof.
Are we so insecure that we always need something more tangible to hold on to?
Are we so forgetful that we need something more than love itself to remind us?
Are we so desperate that we need to go thru the rest of our mundane lives grasping onto something that "proves" that once upon a time, we too, were desirable, and worthy of such an "earth-shattering" kind of love?
Funny how easily people forget.
Funny how fast things change.
I think that's why people actually need proof.
because too often, it is gone before we even realize what we had had in the first place.
we are left wondering, whether something so amazing was just a fragment of our imaginations, or did our dreams actually come true? ... but if so... how were we so stupid to let it slip between our fingers and disappear into nothingness?
... and that's why we search for "proof". to prove that we are sane, to prove that yes, once upon a time, it did happen.
... i don't anymore. LOL. i think my memory has deteriorated past the point of no return. even if i had had proof, i would've forgotten it already. lol. and actually. if i needed proof, then that means u're no longer here. why would i need proof of something that no longer is? and if u were here, and will be here to stay... then ... proof is redundant. no?
让过去的都过去吧。
每天都是新的一天。
我们从新开始，好么？
。
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