终于的终于。

终于。。。
终于，你变成我一直深信你会变成的“有为青年”了。
终于，好像你口中的“她“我也可以做到了。
终于，我们可以像老朋友的样子闲聊了。
终于，和你MSN我的心不会莫名的小鹿乱撞了。
终于，可以心平气和的为你开心，祝你幸福。
只是可惜，你也早已不是曾经让我爱得天翻地覆的“小男生"了。

曾经我的世界之围绕着你转。
曾经为你犯下了太多错误，但因为天真的爱所以都不在乎。
曾经你说我是应该成为你的wife的。
曾经我真地相信过。
只是可惜，我的他却再也不可能是你了。

。。。
原来我们都长大了。
只是可惜，我好像还在为那时的错误赔偿。
可是我认了。
爱过，错过，我不后悔。
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cleanse.

maybe it's like going through a cleansing of sorts.
get rid of all the negativity. the anger. the stress.
live the happy things. and only happy things.
对我不好的，让我不开心的，一律不去想不接近。
说实话我的时间真得挺宝贵的。没有一分钟可以浪费在不开心上。
所以我会挂电话。所以我会block人。所以我不在乎。

目标很明确。开开心心的度过这个月。
未来一片光明。没有什么可以打倒我的。
发生了就发生了。
一大堆的事情要做呢。没有时间浪费在不开心的事情上。

晓悦。加油。

杂。

我想... 凡是笑过的，开心过的，就永远不要后悔。
一辈子或许也不长。人与人在茫茫人海相遇本来就不容易。
一起笑过，开心过，更不容易了。
所以... 开心过就不要后悔。

... 有时候我也会问自己，说自己到底在干什么。疯什么呢？
到最后... 脑海里唯一会浮出的一句话就是... 再强的女生
... 其实，也就是一个女生而已。
无论表面上再嘴硬再大大咧咧再不在乎... 还是有那么半课心的。

今天翻照片。又碰上了Andrius。不知道。还是会很想他。
从来没想到这件事对我的影响会那么大。但就是了。

今天上午看了一上午我的青春。下午晚上又一直在讲中文。
... 发现我讲中文的时候好像都会更开心。
爱上了方宇。爱上了朱雨辰。
就是喜欢北京味儿的男生。 就是喜欢。虽然他是上海人，但我实在看不出来他的上海。
多伦多貌似就没有北京男生。=(

VY Love.

I can't believe this is what's bringing me back to blogging.
I no longer have social contact - except for the ppl that I work with and the loved ones that come downtown to study w/ me (much props and love to that - even if some of them brings 'fun' reading to flaunt in front of me and pretends to read. GOSH. lol. ) but yeah. I guess I do need some way of communicating to the vast world not listening out there.

VY Love.
Last weekend was VY opening weekend. I was clicking thru Bee's VY Opening album... and it's just ... insane. the amount of ... love... that just... overwhelms. Maybe it's been further amplified since the discussion w/ Vee Tuesday night. But I know. that being a part of this. is what makes me feel alive. VY has done so much for me. been so much for me. and there's no way I could be where I am or who I am had VY not happened. For this, I will forever be grateful to Vee and Eric. Coming back now, there's just no words to describe what it feels like to watch these kids grow up and mature year after year. There's so much... love and pride and hope and... just... amazement. I only wish there were 10 of me. So I could do more, be more, and make everything we discussed come true. If only... but there's hope. just... after this summer. There will be life after this summer =).

Otherwise - updates.
life is good. things are good. being back in Toronto is good for the most part.
+FF + Pho + Parents

Peng and Cari are both in Toronto. The feeling of multiple worlds crashing together is some kind of wonderful. Except being all together just makes me miss Beijing and everything that comes along with it even more. On that note. Decisions have been made.

The best friend is also back. and bringing small drops of happiness with every conversation. except i really can't fit him into my schedule until at least late August =(.

Overall. I am grateful that I've got people in my life. People is what makes VY what it is. People make this summer livable. I am so grateful. That after everything that's happened, I've still got you. Much love all around. =).
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另外。你。只要你开心。只要你幸福。就好了。
很感激曾经有过曾经。很抱歉我的所有不足。
我只想看到你幸福。你们。一定要幸福。
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