i've said this time and time again.
but i've gotta say it again.
i LOVE my friends.
i LOVE having friends. period.
friends make my life worth living.
i just... tend to forget that... =T.
thk u. dear gosh.
for friends.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
想念。
没有很多时间，40% 的论文很快要交了我还一点头绪都没有呢。
但是我只是很想说。 我又想他们了。
我不想一天到晚在校内网上说我想回国，但是每次看到校内上他们最近的事情，都会不由自主地想见见他们，聊聊天，知道他们最近如何。
虽然早就不已经是互相生活的一部分了，但是我还是很在意。
记得小时候我就说过我们像一个大家庭，甚至在一起的时间胜过和父母在一起的时间。 互相就像兄弟姐妹。
我越来越觉得和他们在一起，在出来前，在所有的事情发生之前，也许那才是最天真的时候吧？
所以会怀念。因为那么小的时候，很多事情没有那么复杂，没有那么大的责任和负担。
really looking forward to the next half a year of being in Beijing. in China.
it's funny how it may actually be Grey's Anatomy that's starting this whole... looking-back-and-trying-to-understand kind of thing for me.
I've always believe that there's a reason for everything. and looking back... a lot of things start having a reason, a lot of things begin to have causes, have meaning, and it... makes a lot more sense.
my life start to make a lot more sense.
i miss them.
i miss my naivety. the innocence and the freedom.
i love how that seems so antithetical to all that China actually means for most people.
talked to my mom today. about life. about work. about other stuff.
it was actually good.
it's nice having another perspective =).
但是我只是很想说。 我又想他们了。
我不想一天到晚在校内网上说我想回国，但是每次看到校内上他们最近的事情，都会不由自主地想见见他们，聊聊天，知道他们最近如何。
虽然早就不已经是互相生活的一部分了，但是我还是很在意。
记得小时候我就说过我们像一个大家庭，甚至在一起的时间胜过和父母在一起的时间。 互相就像兄弟姐妹。
我越来越觉得和他们在一起，在出来前，在所有的事情发生之前，也许那才是最天真的时候吧？
所以会怀念。因为那么小的时候，很多事情没有那么复杂，没有那么大的责任和负担。
really looking forward to the next half a year of being in Beijing. in China.
it's funny how it may actually be Grey's Anatomy that's starting this whole... looking-back-and-trying-to-understand kind of thing for me.
I've always believe that there's a reason for everything. and looking back... a lot of things start having a reason, a lot of things begin to have causes, have meaning, and it... makes a lot more sense.
my life start to make a lot more sense.
i miss them.
i miss my naivety. the innocence and the freedom.
i love how that seems so antithetical to all that China actually means for most people.
talked to my mom today. about life. about work. about other stuff.
it was actually good.
it's nice having another perspective =).
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
2 months.
Time passes by SO fast.
It seems just yesterday that I was counting down the days until the results of our exchange applications were revealed, and suddenly, I'm exactly two months away from arriving in Beijing.
So I guess this is the unofficial start to this... exchange blog.
I'm writing this essay for my U of T Modern Art class, and I'm doing it on Chinese Avant-Garde Art. It is still so surprising to me how much excited I am about art and how interested I actually am in the material. I barely have to study for exams because I care and I understand and I remember stuff. Readings are not tedious because I'm interested. This interest is especially heightened when it comes to Chinese modern art.
One of the books I found today (which I discovered going through the Toronto Public Library Catalogue last night, and have been excited about ever since) was "The Wall". It was a book based on a Chinese Avant Garde art exhibition in Buffalo back in 2005, and we actually went to see it as part of a Mary Ward art trip. As I opened the book, I was pleasantly surprised yet confused for a second because it was in both Chinese and English side by side. As I scanned through the book, I didn't really know which side to read. o.O. As I read through other books on Chinese modern art, some written by Westerners, I started thinking about my position.
As I am, I approach this subject from a strange kind of way. I am Chinese, but I have been trained in classical and modern Western art history. Yet at the same time, I come with the background of knowing some of Chinese sociopolitical history and also the Western perception of that history. It was just... very strange... almost as though I was being led through my own history through an outsider's perspective, yet at the same time, I'm still internalizing it with my own understanding somewhere in between.
... wow I am have trouble articulating this o.O.
The point is.. this led me to re-thinking my personal position as I head back to Beijing in two months.
The first thing that came to mind was "stuck in between". But I don't like the words "stuck" or "caught", etc.. they sound too passive, and the dynamics are anything but that.
I have been thinking a lot about taking this year as a year to explore, to re-think, to challenge myself and really... trying to learn more about who I really am and where I really want to be... away from the familiar, back to the roots, etc.. As cliche as all this does sound... it's pretty... true... hence the blog name.
Through this blog, hope to stay in touch with everyone and keep everyone updated for the next year.
looking forward to it =)
It seems just yesterday that I was counting down the days until the results of our exchange applications were revealed, and suddenly, I'm exactly two months away from arriving in Beijing.
So I guess this is the unofficial start to this... exchange blog.
I'm writing this essay for my U of T Modern Art class, and I'm doing it on Chinese Avant-Garde Art. It is still so surprising to me how much excited I am about art and how interested I actually am in the material. I barely have to study for exams because I care and I understand and I remember stuff. Readings are not tedious because I'm interested. This interest is especially heightened when it comes to Chinese modern art.
One of the books I found today (which I discovered going through the Toronto Public Library Catalogue last night, and have been excited about ever since) was "The Wall". It was a book based on a Chinese Avant Garde art exhibition in Buffalo back in 2005, and we actually went to see it as part of a Mary Ward art trip. As I opened the book, I was pleasantly surprised yet confused for a second because it was in both Chinese and English side by side. As I scanned through the book, I didn't really know which side to read. o.O. As I read through other books on Chinese modern art, some written by Westerners, I started thinking about my position.
As I am, I approach this subject from a strange kind of way. I am Chinese, but I have been trained in classical and modern Western art history. Yet at the same time, I come with the background of knowing some of Chinese sociopolitical history and also the Western perception of that history. It was just... very strange... almost as though I was being led through my own history through an outsider's perspective, yet at the same time, I'm still internalizing it with my own understanding somewhere in between.
... wow I am have trouble articulating this o.O.
The point is.. this led me to re-thinking my personal position as I head back to Beijing in two months.
The first thing that came to mind was "stuck in between". But I don't like the words "stuck" or "caught", etc.. they sound too passive, and the dynamics are anything but that.
I have been thinking a lot about taking this year as a year to explore, to re-think, to challenge myself and really... trying to learn more about who I really am and where I really want to be... away from the familiar, back to the roots, etc.. As cliche as all this does sound... it's pretty... true... hence the blog name.
Through this blog, hope to stay in touch with everyone and keep everyone updated for the next year.
looking forward to it =)
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