i have just learned that positive reinforcement is the most effective method of motivation for me.
LOL.
there's a reason for everything =).
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
sun! =D
i loveee waking up to sunshine. honestly one of the most important things in my life. =D. kingston is so pretty w/ sun =D. go out and enjoy it guysss! according to weather channel. may very well be the last time we see sun in a WHILE. *sad. lol.
but it's super nice today. awesomeness =).
but it's super nice today. awesomeness =).
Friday, November 27, 2009
running dialogue.
- sitting at maccorry by the windows after breakfast w/ the bff.
a mid-aged man w/ a long coat and long black umbrella and a PIPE! walks by casually outside the windows. o.O. Tina thinks she's seeing things.. LOL.
was on someone's fb this morning and it said, "i left a piece of my heart in europe". and the first thought that popped into my head was "i left my ENTIRE heart in Beijing". LOL. sad but true. saw something yesterday that made me miss beijing massively. - plastic bag covered bike seats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. i KNOW. o.O. first reaction was really... wait... where am i? o.O. what's going on?! y am i so confused?! and THEN. i'm like. OMG. o.O. wtf? and then... hmmmm. i wonder... is this normal? LOL. i swear i've never seen other ppl do this before in canada... o.O. a big part of me wanted to stay around and see if those ppl that come to pick up their bikes were asian. LOL. but it was raining and yeah. =(. it was 5 or 6 bikes that had the plastic covering!!!! I remember thinking in Beijing that that was the smartest thing ever... lol. GASH i miss beijing. *sniff.
OH! other cute occurence at MC today. an elderly couple sitting behind us eating breakfast together and then reading the paper. so cute =D. i heart breakfast. =D.
so excited for flip cup tonight. been wanting to play since beijing! having friends is awesomeeeeeee.
got library notice today that dansu dansu dansu that i had placed on hold has arrived at my home library... except my library card is here w/ me. *sad. been meaning to read that book for a long while now... in memory of andrius. *prays/hopes/wishes that u're doing well and u're happy where u r. we're thinking of u often. =).
this week has just flownnnn by. last week of school coming up soonnnn. *sad/excited. man i miss bridge. lol.
- p.s. still in search of an item i want for xmassssssss =)
a mid-aged man w/ a long coat and long black umbrella and a PIPE! walks by casually outside the windows. o.O. Tina thinks she's seeing things.. LOL.
was on someone's fb this morning and it said, "i left a piece of my heart in europe". and the first thought that popped into my head was "i left my ENTIRE heart in Beijing". LOL. sad but true. saw something yesterday that made me miss beijing massively. - plastic bag covered bike seats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. i KNOW. o.O. first reaction was really... wait... where am i? o.O. what's going on?! y am i so confused?! and THEN. i'm like. OMG. o.O. wtf? and then... hmmmm. i wonder... is this normal? LOL. i swear i've never seen other ppl do this before in canada... o.O. a big part of me wanted to stay around and see if those ppl that come to pick up their bikes were asian. LOL. but it was raining and yeah. =(. it was 5 or 6 bikes that had the plastic covering!!!! I remember thinking in Beijing that that was the smartest thing ever... lol. GASH i miss beijing. *sniff.
OH! other cute occurence at MC today. an elderly couple sitting behind us eating breakfast together and then reading the paper. so cute =D. i heart breakfast. =D.
so excited for flip cup tonight. been wanting to play since beijing! having friends is awesomeeeeeee.
got library notice today that dansu dansu dansu that i had placed on hold has arrived at my home library... except my library card is here w/ me. *sad. been meaning to read that book for a long while now... in memory of andrius. *prays/hopes/wishes that u're doing well and u're happy where u r. we're thinking of u often. =).
this week has just flownnnn by. last week of school coming up soonnnn. *sad/excited. man i miss bridge. lol.
- p.s. still in search of an item i want for xmassssssss =)
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
joy =D.
mannn. i sound like a retard. but being happy is AWESOME.
lol. been having such a great week so far.
so much work to do but it's alllll good =P.
i think happy things happen to happy ppl. LOL. =D.
!!!!.
artsy boys are HOT. seriously.
my hardcore renaissance art class today. sat beside this guy who had really awesome writing. LOL. aaaaaaaaaand. he kept doodling on the side of his paper. such a great artist. tina is officially impressed. mannnn i like artsy boys =P. if only i can get that asian dude to talk to me. ^_^.
aaaaand. ARC ARC ARC!
so excitinggggg. been counting down for sooooooooo long. it's finally cominggggg! =D.
a lil sad that the PEC is closing though. all these scary signs everywhere "WE'RE CLOSING. CLEAN OUT YOUR LOCKER!"... lol. gahhh. still. can't wait can't wait can't wait! =)
so sad.... think i'm really really really gonna miss university really really really soon.
not as much as i miss beijing today... but... still! =P. gotta enjoy this last 5 months to the MAX =).
AND. omg. so much to look forward in the next couple of weeks i don't know if can handle it. LOL. LIFE drawing session this wknd. omg. can't wait!. it's been so long. heart QDP... now titled Expressions.. o.O. lol. ooooooooookay. lol. anyway.
man.. i'm like.. high on life. i'm excited about going GROCERY shopping tmr.. LOL. living close to Metro is awesome. =).
joyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
lol. been having such a great week so far.
so much work to do but it's alllll good =P.
i think happy things happen to happy ppl. LOL. =D.
!!!!.
artsy boys are HOT. seriously.
my hardcore renaissance art class today. sat beside this guy who had really awesome writing. LOL. aaaaaaaaaand. he kept doodling on the side of his paper. such a great artist. tina is officially impressed. mannnn i like artsy boys =P. if only i can get that asian dude to talk to me. ^_^.
aaaaand. ARC ARC ARC!
so excitinggggg. been counting down for sooooooooo long. it's finally cominggggg! =D.
a lil sad that the PEC is closing though. all these scary signs everywhere "WE'RE CLOSING. CLEAN OUT YOUR LOCKER!"... lol. gahhh. still. can't wait can't wait can't wait! =)
so sad.... think i'm really really really gonna miss university really really really soon.
not as much as i miss beijing today... but... still! =P. gotta enjoy this last 5 months to the MAX =).
AND. omg. so much to look forward in the next couple of weeks i don't know if can handle it. LOL. LIFE drawing session this wknd. omg. can't wait!. it's been so long. heart QDP... now titled Expressions.. o.O. lol. ooooooooookay. lol. anyway.
man.. i'm like.. high on life. i'm excited about going GROCERY shopping tmr.. LOL. living close to Metro is awesome. =).
joyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
comfort in familiarity.
people think i'm weird.
i think i'm just boring.
because i like re-watching things.
i like re-watching movies.
i like re-reading books.
i like going to the same places and doing the same things.
i find that comforting.
i like knowing the ending will be one that i like.
i like the... "satisfaction guarantee".
in a world where everything is changing and when we have so lil control over what happens...
i find comfort in familiarity.
i think i'm just boring.
because i like re-watching things.
i like re-watching movies.
i like re-reading books.
i like going to the same places and doing the same things.
i find that comforting.
i like knowing the ending will be one that i like.
i like the... "satisfaction guarantee".
in a world where everything is changing and when we have so lil control over what happens...
i find comfort in familiarity.
Monday, November 23, 2009
nts.
i do not enjoy talking about my past.
please remember this and stop sharing.
seriously tina. remember this.
instead. look at the present & future.
it's all so AWESOME. =D.
sooooooooooo excited about ARC =).
So excited about tmr. b/c then no more papers for 120.
so excited about day after tmr. b/c all "tests" r done for the term.
so much mmore to look forward to =D.
please remember this and stop sharing.
seriously tina. remember this.
instead. look at the present & future.
it's all so AWESOME. =D.
sooooooooooo excited about ARC =).
So excited about tmr. b/c then no more papers for 120.
so excited about day after tmr. b/c all "tests" r done for the term.
so much mmore to look forward to =D.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
happy. =)
wow i haven't been this happy in a whileeee. lol.
happy days happy days happy days =D.
i really like this new system i've been working under. joy =).
list of all the things that made me happy today:
morrison's+. bff. lake+. QL. txts. vball. groceries. cooking. grey's+. starbucks. xmas. tiff. productivity =D. oH! counting down the days to ARC!
life is awesome.
happy days happy days happy days =D.
i really like this new system i've been working under. joy =).
list of all the things that made me happy today:
morrison's+. bff. lake+. QL. txts. vball. groceries. cooking. grey's+. starbucks. xmas. tiff. productivity =D. oH! counting down the days to ARC!
life is awesome.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
christmas!
i actually really like christmas. like. really really. =).
3 weeks til homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =DDDDDDDDDD.
christmas parade in Kingston TWICE =].
lil kids r so cute =).
christmas songs make me super happy too =D.
think i was deprived of christmasy christmas last year.
lol.
*wishing for a white christmas =).
anddddddddd. . . . . .
you ;)
3 weeks til homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =DDDDDDDDDD.
christmas parade in Kingston TWICE =].
lil kids r so cute =).
christmas songs make me super happy too =D.
think i was deprived of christmasy christmas last year.
lol.
*wishing for a white christmas =).
anddddddddd. . . . . .
you ;)
live.
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The
Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God.. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
26. Always choose life.
27. Forgive everyone everything.
28. What other people think of you is none of your business.
29. Time heals almost everything.. Give time, time.
30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
31. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
32. Believe in miracles.
33. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
34. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
35. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
36. Your children get only one childhood.
37. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
38. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
40. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
41. The best is yet to come.
42. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
43. Yield.
44. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
bb - all u need is love.
anyone else.... think that blackberry's most recent marketing campaign is ... risky?
yes this summer we learned that emotions do appeal to people better than anything else.
8 hours listening to focus groups proved that.
however. bb's telling ppl to... "do what they love."...
given the ppl that use blackberrys.... o.O.... isn't that a lil dangerous? LOL.
but then agian... maybe this is bb's targeting the younger population.
i mean. i did see it during gossip girl... LOL.
yes this summer we learned that emotions do appeal to people better than anything else.
8 hours listening to focus groups proved that.
however. bb's telling ppl to... "do what they love."...
given the ppl that use blackberrys.... o.O.... isn't that a lil dangerous? LOL.
but then agian... maybe this is bb's targeting the younger population.
i mean. i did see it during gossip girl... LOL.
ctrl what we can.
we have no ctrl over the things that happen to us.
but we have ctrl over how we let those things affect our lives.
and ctrl over how we choose to react.
those things happened. yes.
but maybe it just needs a restatement.
=)
but we have ctrl over how we let those things affect our lives.
and ctrl over how we choose to react.
those things happened. yes.
but maybe it just needs a restatement.
=)
Friday, November 13, 2009
敏感。
这两个星期对两个字非常的敏感。
我莫名其妙的觉得这一切的发生都不在我的控制之内。
而我的生活，却不由自主地被这些莫名其妙操纵着。
我讨厌被人利用。真的。很讨厌。
那天我们讨论个人性格里最受什么的影响。
我自然是情绪化。
很清楚。因为我的情绪化我很容易被人利用。
我知道。
我病了。
好像很久没有病得这么厉害了。
其实原因我觉得跟上个星期发生的事情有一定的关系。
因为其实那件事情对我的影响真得很大。
只是觉得很无助。
很无奈的再次被漩涡吞没。
他说，从来不会问电视剧里的人他们还好不好。
当她听到，然后问了一句"are u okay?"
当场我就泪流满面。
大家好像都在看八卦新闻的样子再看这件事。
而我却确确实实的生活在其中。
我好像是在生气。生气她来找我，生气我被卷入其中。
我也好像在生气。生气自己居然会生气。
生气自己不能更好地面对，居然为这种事影响自己的生活。
明明已经长大了，却比小时候更不能解决这种事情。
而一个多星期后，当事人却好好的，貌似一点事都没有。
所以我觉得我被利用了。而我讨厌被利用。
还有错觉。
情绪化的人应该常常被错觉误导吧。
很容易被一些很小的举动而感动。以为那就是真的。
其实都是错觉而已。
陈晓悦，你tmd给我振作。
多大一个人了，少tmd给我丢人现眼。
我莫名其妙的觉得这一切的发生都不在我的控制之内。
而我的生活，却不由自主地被这些莫名其妙操纵着。
我讨厌被人利用。真的。很讨厌。
那天我们讨论个人性格里最受什么的影响。
我自然是情绪化。
很清楚。因为我的情绪化我很容易被人利用。
我知道。
我病了。
好像很久没有病得这么厉害了。
其实原因我觉得跟上个星期发生的事情有一定的关系。
因为其实那件事情对我的影响真得很大。
只是觉得很无助。
很无奈的再次被漩涡吞没。
他说，从来不会问电视剧里的人他们还好不好。
当她听到，然后问了一句"are u okay?"
当场我就泪流满面。
大家好像都在看八卦新闻的样子再看这件事。
而我却确确实实的生活在其中。
我好像是在生气。生气她来找我，生气我被卷入其中。
我也好像在生气。生气自己居然会生气。
生气自己不能更好地面对，居然为这种事影响自己的生活。
明明已经长大了，却比小时候更不能解决这种事情。
而一个多星期后，当事人却好好的，貌似一点事都没有。
所以我觉得我被利用了。而我讨厌被利用。
还有错觉。
情绪化的人应该常常被错觉误导吧。
很容易被一些很小的举动而感动。以为那就是真的。
其实都是错觉而已。
陈晓悦，你tmd给我振作。
多大一个人了，少tmd给我丢人现眼。
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
karma.
so last week.
i skipped my midterm because... let's just say... life happened.
i didn't wanna hafta explain to prof so i said i was sick w/ flu.
this week.
my rescheduled midterm is in 18 hours.
and i am legitimately sick.
like. ready to fall and collapse and sleep for 20 hours sick.
seriously. karma hates me.
i skipped my midterm because... let's just say... life happened.
i didn't wanna hafta explain to prof so i said i was sick w/ flu.
this week.
my rescheduled midterm is in 18 hours.
and i am legitimately sick.
like. ready to fall and collapse and sleep for 20 hours sick.
seriously. karma hates me.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
wishful thinking.
it's like thru a glass ceiling.
them. so innocent. so complete.
it's like a lie u keep telling urself.
if u're w/ them long enuff u too,
may, h e a l .
i don't know why i tried explaining.
i wonder if i actually expected them to get it.
let's stfu.
let's not mar them.
no one likes broken toys.
just thought we were done.
just thought it was... s a f e again.
them. so innocent. so complete.
it's like a lie u keep telling urself.
if u're w/ them long enuff u too,
may, h e a l .
i don't know why i tried explaining.
i wonder if i actually expected them to get it.
let's stfu.
let's not mar them.
no one likes broken toys.
just thought we were done.
just thought it was... s a f e again.
in pursuit of happiness.
we run. we cling. we do w/e we can.
we give up everything. willingly.
sent tumbling back thru time.
moral obligations.
this is a week of reminders.
deep breath. don't falter.
.
i can't rmb the last time i felt this nauseated.
postponing my midterm tonight.
can't do this.
.
again the same question that's been in my mind all week ponders.
. . . did we really think we'd all escape unscathed?
.
we give up everything. willingly.
sent tumbling back thru time.
moral obligations.
this is a week of reminders.
deep breath. don't falter.
.
i can't rmb the last time i felt this nauseated.
postponing my midterm tonight.
can't do this.
.
again the same question that's been in my mind all week ponders.
. . . did we really think we'd all escape unscathed?
.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
可以不可以。
可不可以让我回到突然长大那一天
那一刻他的吻改变我的世界
可不可以这个夏天这些故事能永远
球场边界外线我们已越走越远
我可以划一个圈把自己关在里面
把回忆挡在外面
却不能停止想念在我的天空蔓延
他有的善良和善变
我可以划一个圈当做是完美句点
还他自由的蓝天
却不能停止想念一幕幕甜美画面
如果放弃了这一切
那么在我身体里的灵魂是谁
可不可以让我练习心碎时候有笑脸
等着他已走远才能落下眼泪
可不可以让我消失在地平线这瞬间
哭过了冷却了起风了却不能飞
我可以划一个圈把自己关在里面
把回忆挡在外面
却不能停止想念在我的天空蔓延
他有的善良和善变
我可以划一个圈当做是完美句点
还他自由的蓝天
却不能停止想念一幕幕甜美画面
如果放弃了这一切
那么在我身体里的灵魂是谁
我可以划一个圈把自己关在里面
把回忆挡在外面
却不能停止想念在我的天空蔓延
他有的善良和善变
我可以划一个圈当做是完美句点
还他自由的蓝天
却不能停止想念一幕幕甜美画面
如果放弃了这一切
那么在我身体里的灵魂是谁
所以我可以一直拥抱心碎
我决定的事情，尤其这种事情。
一般不会改变。自欺欺人对谁都不好。
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