three.
my neighbours scare me.
seriously. very scared =T.
i dislike living in the real ghetto.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
1+2
one.
after months and weeks and non-stop nagging the past 2 weeks by my parents. literally. endless nagging and fighting and arguing.
i have signed away at least a couple of years of my life. -_-".
two.
episode 20 of 蜗居。
我还是想嫁给小贝。
but then as i was thinking about this.
i realized. 小贝是一个女人笔下的创作。
现实生活中没有那么好的男人。
就算有。也不是我碰得上的。
完。
after months and weeks and non-stop nagging the past 2 weeks by my parents. literally. endless nagging and fighting and arguing.
i have signed away at least a couple of years of my life. -_-".
two.
episode 20 of 蜗居。
我还是想嫁给小贝。
but then as i was thinking about this.
i realized. 小贝是一个女人笔下的创作。
现实生活中没有那么好的男人。
就算有。也不是我碰得上的。
完。
Friday, December 25, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
宅。
最近好宅呀。。。宅到我妈都觉得我不正常了。
apparently tmr is xmas. o.O. did not realize at all. LOL.
I've been home 11 days... other than going to kingston.
i have left my house exactly 3 times. ... omg. o.O.
accomplishment this break.
11. days.
4. times i've left the house.
0. TV shows completed.
0. $ spent shopping.
1. book case cleaned out.
2. boxes unpacked -__-".
lol. mannnn. such a chill break =P.
loves it. ;)
oh! and!!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
apparently tmr is xmas. o.O. did not realize at all. LOL.
I've been home 11 days... other than going to kingston.
i have left my house exactly 3 times. ... omg. o.O.
accomplishment this break.
11. days.
4. times i've left the house.
0. TV shows completed.
0. $ spent shopping.
1. book case cleaned out.
2. boxes unpacked -__-".
lol. mannnn. such a chill break =P.
loves it. ;)
oh! and!!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
fulfuillment.
is simple.
i realize i don't want a lot. need a lot.
just chilling is good =).
i think i might just hermit all of next yr.
lol. i enjoy living life on my own terms.
i think i can call my experiment a success =).
so happy to see peng today.
so happy so happy so happy.
tho poor peng was so delirious.
heart friends. =). wish he didn't go to duke =(.
居然还会紧张。
晕死了。
i realize i don't want a lot. need a lot.
just chilling is good =).
i think i might just hermit all of next yr.
lol. i enjoy living life on my own terms.
i think i can call my experiment a success =).
so happy to see peng today.
so happy so happy so happy.
tho poor peng was so delirious.
heart friends. =). wish he didn't go to duke =(.
居然还会紧张。
晕死了。
Monday, December 14, 2009
the anticlimax.
after the mad cramming ends and all the dust settles...
all we are left... is this... anticlimatic end.
"convocation"... at the end of 4 long years.
this graduation is so drastically different from all other graduations.
in each previous educational institution, there was something better to look forward to after the end. something new and exciting, more fun, more freedom.
4 years go when we first entered this institution, it came, for many, a highly valued prize achieved after years of hard work. it came as affirmation, of one's wroth and achievements.
stepping into Goodes hall, sitting in 342 for the first time, the Director of the program proudly announced our class average and the highlights of some individuals amongst us, and reassured us for the nth time, that we were the best and brightest of this country, "cream of the crop",they used to say. We were excited and proud, ready to take on the new challenges that would be thrown our way.
However, 4 years later, after countless nights in a breakout room, numerous interviews and hours and hours of our youth, our best years, toiled away at meaningless assignments and buried in the library. Isn't it alarming that for most students, the highlight of their 4 years here was their term they spent away from this "cute university town" that we had so dearly longed for?
As graduation nears and the September plans are shared. I am disappointed. As I watch "the best and brightest", one by one, sign their lives away into yet another job, another company, excited only by the safety net they have secured, by the new "employed" status.... w/ a self assuring shrug they say, "just a couple of years, just a couple of years... until...."
where is the glory? where is the sense of accomplishment?
Yes, some people are going to the best companies in their industries. but so what? it's just another endless job, day after day, in the suit the office the commute.... none of this... excites me. after 4 years of "higher" education. I think I expected more. I think I thought it would help us find ourselves, help us reach our dreams, push us to new heights and truly inspire us., to use our talents and education to the betterment of society. I can only say, from my very subjective and perhaps, very ungrateful and negative perspective, that I am disappointed. If anything, the past 4 years have extinguished the fire that once lighted brightly inside of me, it has hardened me and took away the ability to dream. it has dulled me and made more "Practical". I can't help but wonder, what were the childhood dreams of our classmates? what are their true passions? How close has these past 4 years truly brought them closer to their original dreams? Or how far it has taken them in the other direction.
I don't regret coming to Queen's. Heck, I don't even regret going into Commerce. I just can't help but feel that this is such an anticlimatic ending to perhaps too naive a dream.
all we are left... is this... anticlimatic end.
"convocation"... at the end of 4 long years.
this graduation is so drastically different from all other graduations.
in each previous educational institution, there was something better to look forward to after the end. something new and exciting, more fun, more freedom.
4 years go when we first entered this institution, it came, for many, a highly valued prize achieved after years of hard work. it came as affirmation, of one's wroth and achievements.
stepping into Goodes hall, sitting in 342 for the first time, the Director of the program proudly announced our class average and the highlights of some individuals amongst us, and reassured us for the nth time, that we were the best and brightest of this country, "cream of the crop",they used to say. We were excited and proud, ready to take on the new challenges that would be thrown our way.
However, 4 years later, after countless nights in a breakout room, numerous interviews and hours and hours of our youth, our best years, toiled away at meaningless assignments and buried in the library. Isn't it alarming that for most students, the highlight of their 4 years here was their term they spent away from this "cute university town" that we had so dearly longed for?
As graduation nears and the September plans are shared. I am disappointed. As I watch "the best and brightest", one by one, sign their lives away into yet another job, another company, excited only by the safety net they have secured, by the new "employed" status.... w/ a self assuring shrug they say, "just a couple of years, just a couple of years... until...."
where is the glory? where is the sense of accomplishment?
Yes, some people are going to the best companies in their industries. but so what? it's just another endless job, day after day, in the suit the office the commute.... none of this... excites me. after 4 years of "higher" education. I think I expected more. I think I thought it would help us find ourselves, help us reach our dreams, push us to new heights and truly inspire us., to use our talents and education to the betterment of society. I can only say, from my very subjective and perhaps, very ungrateful and negative perspective, that I am disappointed. If anything, the past 4 years have extinguished the fire that once lighted brightly inside of me, it has hardened me and took away the ability to dream. it has dulled me and made more "Practical". I can't help but wonder, what were the childhood dreams of our classmates? what are their true passions? How close has these past 4 years truly brought them closer to their original dreams? Or how far it has taken them in the other direction.
I don't regret coming to Queen's. Heck, I don't even regret going into Commerce. I just can't help but feel that this is such an anticlimatic ending to perhaps too naive a dream.
Friday, December 11, 2009
ghosts of yearbooks past =P
edit: 6:50pm. DAMMIT why do I suddenly smell HOTPOT. GAH. cravings. grrrr.
i'm obviously procrastinating. more than i really should be. GAH. c'mon tina. pull it together. SOOO close.
SOO close to home. SOOOOO close to mommie & daddie. SOOOOOOO close to leaving my shack of a house. SOOOOOOOOOOoo close to my big big bed and my big big big big big closet. SO CLOSE.
5 essays. u can do this.
8 more chapters. u can do this.
i LOVE learning this. I DO. i'm just lazy.
shuddup tina. focus. enjoy this.
i AM enjoying this. i've just suddenly decided to enjoy the sun more than y txtbk. LOL.
c'monnnnnnnn tina. SO close.
but yeah.
dug out old pictures. from um... grade 12 yearbook... (have i actually picked it up yet? LOL. can't remember)
funny funny funny. made me very nostalgic.
yes campbell was crazy. yes ward was.. o.O... i don't know.
i think it's funny how i said it has been "unforgettable". cuz i obviously have forgotten. purposely forgotten. LOL. the things we say for social conventions.
and haha. i tagged u in that picture. lol. i find that funny. i also find it funny how u have yet to untag. i also love how the majority of the ppl listed in that picture did not goto Ward. LOL. what a ghost of an existence. LOL.
i'm glad it all happened. and i think i'd gladly put on that uniform and hang out back in those self study rooms again. i'm grateful. for afterall. ward did save me didn't it? =）.
i'm obviously procrastinating. more than i really should be. GAH. c'mon tina. pull it together. SOOO close.
SOO close to home. SOOOOO close to mommie & daddie. SOOOOOOO close to leaving my shack of a house. SOOOOOOOOOOoo close to my big big bed and my big big big big big closet. SO CLOSE.
5 essays. u can do this.
8 more chapters. u can do this.
i LOVE learning this. I DO. i'm just lazy.
shuddup tina. focus. enjoy this.
i AM enjoying this. i've just suddenly decided to enjoy the sun more than y txtbk. LOL.
c'monnnnnnnn tina. SO close.
but yeah.
dug out old pictures. from um... grade 12 yearbook... (have i actually picked it up yet? LOL. can't remember)
funny funny funny. made me very nostalgic.
yes campbell was crazy. yes ward was.. o.O... i don't know.
i think it's funny how i said it has been "unforgettable". cuz i obviously have forgotten. purposely forgotten. LOL. the things we say for social conventions.
and haha. i tagged u in that picture. lol. i find that funny. i also find it funny how u have yet to untag. i also love how the majority of the ppl listed in that picture did not goto Ward. LOL. what a ghost of an existence. LOL.
i'm glad it all happened. and i think i'd gladly put on that uniform and hang out back in those self study rooms again. i'm grateful. for afterall. ward did save me didn't it? =）.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
LMAO
ZT from XN
1.
王心凌《爱你》，S.H.E《我爱你》，Beyond《真的爱你》，李宗盛《我是真的爱你》，言承旭《我是真的真的很爱你》。
点评：有这么这么复杂么？
2.王菲《如果你是假的》，邓丽君《假如我是真的》，萧正楠《假如我是假的》，孟庭苇《真的还是假的》 。
点评：靠，能退货么？
3.成龙《我是谁》，蟑螂《忘了我是谁》，蔡依林《你是谁》，许志安《忘了你是谁》。
点评：你们都需要脑白金！
4.萧亚轩《一辈子做你的女孩》，龙梅子《下辈子做你的女人》。
点评：不错，成熟了！
5.朴树《我爱你 再见》，丁薇
《再见 我爱你》
点评：不送……
6.苏永康《男人不该让女人流泪》，陈小春《女人不该让男人太累》。
点评：多么体贴的小夫妻啊！
7.姜育恒《爱我你怕了吗》，孙燕姿《害怕》，王力宏《不要害怕》，潘玮柏《我不怕》，赵薇《不怕》，郭美美《不怕不怕啦》，郑伊健《怕什么，什么也不怕》。
点评：真是人多胆子大！
8.董文华《春天的故事》，杨千桦《夏天的故事》，陈艾玲《秋天的故事》，马天宇《冬天的故事》。
点评：真是天天故事会啊！
9. 王心凌《honey》，孙燕姿《honeyhoney》，萧亚轩《honeyhoneyhoney》
点评：你们全家卖蜂蜜的
1.
王心凌《爱你》，S.H.E《我爱你》，Beyond《真的爱你》，李宗盛《我是真的爱你》，言承旭《我是真的真的很爱你》。
点评：有这么这么复杂么？
2.王菲《如果你是假的》，邓丽君《假如我是真的》，萧正楠《假如我是假的》，孟庭苇《真的还是假的》 。
点评：靠，能退货么？
3.成龙《我是谁》，蟑螂《忘了我是谁》，蔡依林《你是谁》，许志安《忘了你是谁》。
点评：你们都需要脑白金！
4.萧亚轩《一辈子做你的女孩》，龙梅子《下辈子做你的女人》。
点评：不错，成熟了！
5.朴树《我爱你 再见》，丁薇
《再见 我爱你》
点评：不送……
6.苏永康《男人不该让女人流泪》，陈小春《女人不该让男人太累》。
点评：多么体贴的小夫妻啊！
7.姜育恒《爱我你怕了吗》，孙燕姿《害怕》，王力宏《不要害怕》，潘玮柏《我不怕》，赵薇《不怕》，郭美美《不怕不怕啦》，郑伊健《怕什么，什么也不怕》。
点评：真是人多胆子大！
8.董文华《春天的故事》，杨千桦《夏天的故事》，陈艾玲《秋天的故事》，马天宇《冬天的故事》。
点评：真是天天故事会啊！
9. 王心凌《honey》，孙燕姿《honeyhoney》，萧亚轩《honeyhoneyhoney》
点评：你们全家卖蜂蜜的
fathers.
... sad.
dear boys: when you grow up and become a father. please call your daughters often. they like to hear from you. not just when u need something from them. please call normally too. -__-" they'd appreciate it. really.
sad... =(.
so surprised to get a call from daddie today. and was so excited. OMG he misses me too!!!!! awesomeness. and then within 2 minutes it became clear that he was only calling because he had discovered yet another "opportunity" and wanted me to look into it for him... even though he knows i'm in the middle of exams. =(.
officially sad =(.
dear boys: when you grow up and become a father. please call your daughters often. they like to hear from you. not just when u need something from them. please call normally too. -__-" they'd appreciate it. really.
sad... =(.
so surprised to get a call from daddie today. and was so excited. OMG he misses me too!!!!! awesomeness. and then within 2 minutes it became clear that he was only calling because he had discovered yet another "opportunity" and wanted me to look into it for him... even though he knows i'm in the middle of exams. =(.
officially sad =(.
Friday, December 4, 2009
this moment.
closest to perfection.
with bright bright sunshine flooding through the large large large floor to ceiling windows at the new CoGrow, and mad snow outside at the same time. odd oxymoron but oh so awesome.
and my awesome piece of caramel crumble.
happy music at the cogro.
heart all of this. heart heart heart.
AHHH and as i was typing this, the snow ceased... and the sun has taken over... baby blue skies anf fluffy clouds =).
loving it all =).
with bright bright sunshine flooding through the large large large floor to ceiling windows at the new CoGrow, and mad snow outside at the same time. odd oxymoron but oh so awesome.
and my awesome piece of caramel crumble.
happy music at the cogro.
heart all of this. heart heart heart.
AHHH and as i was typing this, the snow ceased... and the sun has taken over... baby blue skies anf fluffy clouds =).
loving it all =).
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
renren.com
每次无聊在校内转，总是会勾起一种很奇怪的感觉。
可能因为当年的一切，对年幼无知的我，可能发生的太快太突然。
可能因为从小就没有什么真正所谓的大梦想。
能够想起来的也仅仅是想给爸爸妈妈买一个大房子然后自己画画。
真的。 就尽此而已。可以说是很胸无大志吧。
小时候的生活圈子很小。只是很努力的学习，常常说一个班就是一家人。
而我们理所当然的应该一起长大。。。而那栋只有三层的教学楼就是我的全世界，
只是希望有一天可以被选成升旗手，帅气的让那面五星红旗飘扬。
从班长到中队到大队，三年‘好孩子’之后在三年'三好学生',
然后保送到四中然后北大中文，这一切都是理所当然应该发生的事情。
可这一切在一夜之间全然失踪。 曾经认为应得的东西突然都飘散了。
飘洋过海开始全新的生活。
或许我还有些不公平，无论最后结果如何，虽然知道很多人很羡慕，
但我还是觉得我的生活无奈的被打乱了，而安排好的人生路线也失踪了。
在校内晃悠，在北大蹭课，在食堂吃1块钱的西红柿鸡蛋面，骑着破车在北京大街小巷里乱逛，和路边小贩狂侃，从很多程度上来讲，这都是我认为我原本会过的生活所以很珍惜，很享受。
在校内，会看到很多事情很多故事很多感受，常常会想，嗯。本来我也会是这样的。
向往不是因为羡慕。羡慕不是因为生在福中不知福，只是因为安排好的生活有了变化。。。
可能因为当年的一切，对年幼无知的我，可能发生的太快太突然。
可能因为从小就没有什么真正所谓的大梦想。
能够想起来的也仅仅是想给爸爸妈妈买一个大房子然后自己画画。
真的。 就尽此而已。可以说是很胸无大志吧。
小时候的生活圈子很小。只是很努力的学习，常常说一个班就是一家人。
而我们理所当然的应该一起长大。。。而那栋只有三层的教学楼就是我的全世界，
只是希望有一天可以被选成升旗手，帅气的让那面五星红旗飘扬。
从班长到中队到大队，三年‘好孩子’之后在三年'三好学生',
然后保送到四中然后北大中文，这一切都是理所当然应该发生的事情。
可这一切在一夜之间全然失踪。 曾经认为应得的东西突然都飘散了。
飘洋过海开始全新的生活。
或许我还有些不公平，无论最后结果如何，虽然知道很多人很羡慕，
但我还是觉得我的生活无奈的被打乱了，而安排好的人生路线也失踪了。
在校内晃悠，在北大蹭课，在食堂吃1块钱的西红柿鸡蛋面，骑着破车在北京大街小巷里乱逛，和路边小贩狂侃，从很多程度上来讲，这都是我认为我原本会过的生活所以很珍惜，很享受。
在校内，会看到很多事情很多故事很多感受，常常会想，嗯。本来我也会是这样的。
向往不是因为羡慕。羡慕不是因为生在福中不知福，只是因为安排好的生活有了变化。。。
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
ahhhh. mad cram for test in 82 minutes. mad mad mad cram. LOL.
then i can say i'm officially done one course for the term =D. excited!
anywya. falling at stauff. and started listening to LP - cuz the only thing on my playlist that's not all like. slow and melancholy and uhhh. lithargic. haha.... but mannnn. o.o. LP.. LOL. suddenly i listen to the lyrics and i'm like... whoa.... funny. funny how it used to say everything. funny how i'm totally okay. LOL.
such a vivid dream the night before last.
and i'll admit that in the moment. it was wonderful. and i missed u. i missed us.
but then it's all so amazing how it's all totally fine now. haha.
i hope u r well.
GAH. xmas plans. LOL. darn....
my um... propensity for awkward situations have declined significantly in my old age. LOL. i think when i was younger, these awkward situations were a strange curiosity to me and i embraced the awkwardness. LOL. but now... as i stare at the guestlist of yeses i'm just like. lmao..... let's avoid and not make things awkward. =P. oh dear xmas.... LOL... dear toronto and ghosts of xmases past. LOL. *awkward laughter. hahaha. =P
btw. this reminds me of what she said abt me a couple months ago. "see. the old tee would've been like... oh... hole!... *JUMP. lol. whereas nowwwww. it's like... oh ew. hole. uh... *skips around happily, avoids hole and keeps going =DDDDD" LOL. sometimes i think maturity is awesome. maybe getting old isn't so bad after all =P.
then i can say i'm officially done one course for the term =D. excited!
anywya. falling at stauff. and started listening to LP - cuz the only thing on my playlist that's not all like. slow and melancholy and uhhh. lithargic. haha.... but mannnn. o.o. LP.. LOL. suddenly i listen to the lyrics and i'm like... whoa.... funny. funny how it used to say everything. funny how i'm totally okay. LOL.
such a vivid dream the night before last.
and i'll admit that in the moment. it was wonderful. and i missed u. i missed us.
but then it's all so amazing how it's all totally fine now. haha.
i hope u r well.
GAH. xmas plans. LOL. darn....
my um... propensity for awkward situations have declined significantly in my old age. LOL. i think when i was younger, these awkward situations were a strange curiosity to me and i embraced the awkwardness. LOL. but now... as i stare at the guestlist of yeses i'm just like. lmao..... let's avoid and not make things awkward. =P. oh dear xmas.... LOL... dear toronto and ghosts of xmases past. LOL. *awkward laughter. hahaha. =P
btw. this reminds me of what she said abt me a couple months ago. "see. the old tee would've been like... oh... hole!... *JUMP. lol. whereas nowwwww. it's like... oh ew. hole. uh... *skips around happily, avoids hole and keeps going =DDDDD" LOL. sometimes i think maturity is awesome. maybe getting old isn't so bad after all =P.
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