it's good to be back.

i have no memory these days.
last night vee joked that i should re-read diaries.
so i actually did o.O LOL. re-read second year.
all i can say is... o.m.g. lol.
man i don't remember HALF the stuff that happened.
but... *shrugs*. i don't know.
read a book today. there was a line in it i liked.
“人失去记忆之后，是不会变成另一个人的，只是想不起来以往而已。”
so with this i agree.

on another note.
was so happy last night. =D
man it's been so long but it's sooooo good.
i'm so happy i've got friends in my life =]
def gotta meet up more often. =D
these ppl mean half the world to me and i am oh so grateful. SO grateful that they're still here after we've been thru. sometimes i think i forget. and then we meet up and i am reminded of how amazing it all could be.
.... so things turned out a lil differently from what we had planned for them to.
.... but it was a dream that we had dreamt together.
and... lol... i know that no matter where life takes me... or how i appear to change to the rest of the world. in their eyes. i'd still be that girl. or actually... more like the idiot child of the group. LOL. =P. it's allllll good. =) love.

and. never got around to it.
but OMG so grateful for the most thoughtful gift i have ever received in my entire life.
no seriously. i sat there thinking for a long time, about something else that could trump this, and came up with nothing (but then again i really have no memory these days so forgive me and remind me if there are). it doesn't matter that it took five months to actually get to me. simply the idea and the thought of it .... t h a n k y o u . really.
every single one of you. it means more than words can say.
and i'm glad there's still a lot of room left.
more space for more memories to be added =D.
we've got the rest of our lives. cuz i'm never letting you guys go. =)
ff. for life. we promised.

and final note.
last night when i came home.
i suddenly realized. i'm SO happy that they're happy.
i'm SO happy that he's happy. gosh. SO happy.

cuz that tells me.
if they are happy. then that must mean there's something better out there.
if he's happy with her. then they must be really good and it's still possible.

haha.

so there's still hope for the rest of us =).