2oo9.

so i have been asked by a dear friend to write up my projections and resolutions for 2oo9. this man is convinced that o9 is going to be a big yr. somehow. after the yr that was 2oo8. it seems hard to get excited abt o9. nothing big seems to be happening. it's not like we're gonna do olympics in my home city again. nor am i going to be in bj for much longer. we're not graduating yet. nothing... spectacular seems to be on the agenda. (sorry dear. this is a subjective view. i don't mean to put a damper on ur rare enthusiasm =p)

so here it is. what 2oo9 looks to me at the moment.

[o1] final month in bj. unfinished plans. mommie visit. back to cq. first chinese new yr in china in 12 yrs. return to bj for one day = elementary school reunion.
[o2] fly to barcelona (nts: must find housing). start class. madrid-barcelona-paris trip w/ cat, cari, and shelly (omg). 21 w/ the loved ones in PARIS.
[o3] ... and the plans die. budapest trip?. travel around europe
[o4] finish up classes. exams. more travelling w/ parents? =D
[o5] homecoming. or maybe a term at the castle? PGx3. (nts: need housing too)
[o6] pgx3. summer w/ cari in the tdot. =D. vy recommences?
[o7] vy. pgx3. utsgx2?. (.... summer 08 repeat).
[08] vy. pgx3. utsgx2?. summerlicious. end of summer gatherings.
[o9] beginning of the end? lol. back to kingston (argh. need housing again). empress?
[1o] school.
[11] school.......
[12] school................ xmas. new yrs. life goes on.

lol. maybe it's gd that i have such a ... plain outlook for 2oo9. so it can only get more exciting right? =D.

resolutions/goals for 2oo9.
1. live my name =]. happy everyday. sm:)e.
2. stay in touch w/ the loved ones. i mean it.
3. new goal. find it. plan it. achieve it.
4. take better care of self. stop living like it doesn't matter.
5. re-find motivation to go full speed forward.
6. continue living my rainbows. embrace it.
7. read. 100 books. start today.
8. start drawing again.
9. volleyball. just play.

this was SO hard.
exchange... has changed me. i don't know if i'd be diff once i get back to QC. w/ the competition. w/ the cutthroatness. w/ constant reminders and getting caught back in it all. but i'm happy now... and realize that i value this happiness.... just.. being surrounded by friends. chilling and enjoying each day... being happy. seeing/trying/feeling something new each day.... means more to me than w/e goals i had to keep me going the first 2 yrs of university. i've recently been re-reading tuesdays w/ morrie. and for the first time in 3 yrs. i'm feeling like i can accept his words, and find similiarities in what he says and how i'm living. it's the first time that i'm not rejecting his advice as "that's nice. but i can't do that right now. i need more." at the same time i suddenly realized. a lot of it is because i'm not at home. i don't see them. i'm not living the grocery trips and the dinner table conversations. i'm not constantly reminded of how i got here and why.

so i guess this is #10. and it overrides... everything. on this list. and as soon as i land in Toronto. it's all coming back.

10. ma raison d'être.
*thanks =P i knew. just lazy =P

nothing else matters.