it enhances memory loss with the lack of surrounding context as reminders.
in addition to my already non-existent memory, the moving around, attending 12 schools, too many all-nighters and a lot of excessive consumption of alcohol, as well as purposefully forgetting certain parts of my life, i officially have messed up memories and interpretations of my life.
i think it might be easier if i simply had the memory of a fish, period. lol.
but i read back yesterday. to my journal started on the plane-ride back to Beijing this past February. and was astounded at the amount of information I found in there that I have clearly forgotten in the past 9 months. bu there were such profound realizations and tidbits of knowledge & judgments. I probably would've saved myself a lot of agony and hours wasted pinning away after pointless things.
must must must consolidate these learnings to be constantly by me somehow. as to enable me to live my life more effectively and actually learn from my own history -_____-"
i will do this over xmas.
enable here and now.
p.s. the ex-best-friend is coming home today.
i haven't been caring. yet there's a semi-unconscious countdown. LOL.
what difference does it make? =).
TINA: consolidate ur memory. and learn. and remember. c'monnnnn.
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