想念。

没有很多时间，40% 的论文很快要交了我还一点头绪都没有呢。
但是我只是很想说。 我又想他们了。
我不想一天到晚在校内网上说我想回国，但是每次看到校内上他们最近的事情，都会不由自主地想见见他们，聊聊天，知道他们最近如何。
虽然早就不已经是互相生活的一部分了，但是我还是很在意。
记得小时候我就说过我们像一个大家庭，甚至在一起的时间胜过和父母在一起的时间。 互相就像兄弟姐妹。
我越来越觉得和他们在一起，在出来前，在所有的事情发生之前，也许那才是最天真的时候吧？
所以会怀念。因为那么小的时候，很多事情没有那么复杂，没有那么大的责任和负担。

really looking forward to the next half a year of being in Beijing. in China.
it's funny how it may actually be Grey's Anatomy that's starting this whole... looking-back-and-trying-to-understand kind of thing for me.
I've always believe that there's a reason for everything. and looking back... a lot of things start having a reason, a lot of things begin to have causes, have meaning, and it... makes a lot more sense.
my life start to make a lot more sense.
i miss them.
i miss my naivety. the innocence and the freedom.
i love how that seems so antithetical to all that China actually means for most people.

talked to my mom today. about life. about work. about other stuff.
it was actually good.
it's nice having another perspective =).